Writing used to be such a huge part of my life. I sucked at it but nevertheless I loved it. I used to get joy from putting all the words racing through my brain down on paper, so to speak and got a high from the whole publishing process. So why did I stop? Frankly, I didn’t have the time.
I see posts from other authors that say things like, “Those who don’t have the time to write don’t really love it,” “If you cannot make time to do what you love you must not really enjoy it,” “If it’s easy to walk away you never cared to begin with,” and I will say that in the beginning I believed them all. Now I realize it’s not about walking away from something I love it’s about prioritizing.
I have a full time job, two teen girls, a husband, a family, and I am also studying for my real estate license all of that tends to leave me with very little time to actually sit down and type out thousands of words. I see authors who wake up at 4am in order to cram in a few words before starting their day. I applaud these authors and admire them so much because as much as I would love to be able to do that I just can’t. And now that my brain is occupied with everything else it leaves very little passion for romance writing. How does one write a sexy romantic scene for a book when they are exhausted from the entire day? Needless to say the passion for writing has sizzled for me.
I still long to write. Some days I’ll be driving to work and a small story line pops into my head so I’ll type up something quick just to get it out of my head and let it go. I may even put them on my blog but I no longer wish to write a 50,000 word novel. I’ve written two which are still on Amazon but I don’t care to try that again no matter how much I’d like to. Maybe one day I’ll get back to it but it won’t be any time soon.
I’ve put my kids, my husband, my job, and my studies in front of everything else so I don’t really look at it as giving up or walking away. I still love writing it’s just in small doses. Just because I no longer wish to sit for hours on end and type thousands of words doesn’t mean I love it any less.
I had to make a choice, something had to give, and unfortunately writing was it. However, I still have my blog because as mentioned before I still crave the writing so who ever may read this gets to read all my gibberish. You’re welcome. lol
I will say that my blog will still be a place for me to talk about things I love including authors and books I just happen to fall in love with. I will not post something just to post it. If I post something it’s because I love it.
So I’ll leave this little post saying thank you to those who have read my books and/or stories and who stick around and read the rest of my gibberish.
I hope to update more often.